We’ve interviewed more than 700 people in Gaza over the past two years. Their stories stayed with us.
We kept wondering: Did they find their missing relatives? Are their homes standing? Did they bury their dead? Were they forced to flee again? Were they even still alive?
So we tried to find them again. This is what they said.
No single experience can fully contain the agony of Gaza, the near-obliteration of a society and a place.
Collectively, however, the people we spoke to over the past two years have helped us see how the war has crushed those who have lived it.
They told us about the raw wounds of their grief, their fear of the next airstrike, their dread of tomorrow. About the first time they fled home as Israeli bombs and shells fell closer, the first time they put up a makeshift tent, the second time, the third.
About their weakening bodies, their children crying for bread, their days searching for baby formula and lentils. About their hopes of being evacuated for medical treatment, of going back to school, of reuniting with their families.
We tried to get back in touch with many of them. Many did not respond. Some phone numbers no longer worked. Others had escaped Gaza. Some, we learned, had been killed.
Of the nearly 100 we reached, everyone lost something or someone: a family member, a friend, their home, hope.
I lost a sister, a brother, and nearly 40 relatives. That alone feels like more than enough grief for one lifetime.
Ismail al-Sheikh
Our lives are nothing but suffering on top of suffering. We’ve lost relatives and been scattered across tents.
Hanaa al-Najjar
When we spoke last summer to Samar al-Jaja and her nephews, Mohammed, Mahmoud, Ahmed and Abdullah Akeila, it had been 10 months since the brothers’ parents and baby sister had been killed in an airstrike.
Under their tent at a charity camp, they still held out hope that they would see their parents when they were allowed to go home to Gaza City.
But when they got home earlier this year, only their parents’ bedroom was still standing.
There was no one inside. The five of them stood there, numb.
“The kids said sadly, ‘We wish we were buried with them,’” Ms. al-Jaja, 32, said when we contacted her again recently.
They have never been able to mourn properly. The sweets that people in Gaza traditionally distribute on the anniversary of a death were too expensive to make, given the wartime price of flour and sugar.
They couldn’t even say a prayer at their parents’ graves. They do not know where they are.
“Even that closure has been taken from us,” she said.
She spoke to us from a half-destroyed building in Gaza City where she and her nephews were sheltering.
Days later, Israeli forces stormed the city, the latest operation in the two-year campaign against Hamas in Gaza, which began after the militant group’s deadly Oct. 7, 2023, attack on Israel.
Negotiators from Israel and Hamas began holding talks in Cairo on Monday about a possible swap of Israeli hostages in Gaza for Palestinians in Israeli prisons. If they agree, the war could be one step closer to ending.
But as they wait to hear what will happen to them, Palestinians in Gaza must keep trying to survive.
Ms. al-Jaja and her nephews moved to another neighborhood to escape the offensive in Gaza City, then fled south. They paid nearly $4,000 to a truck driver to load half their belongings — it was “pay or risk death,” the driver told them, Ms. al-Jaja said.
After a 14-hour journey, they ended up back in the same charity camp they were living in last year. This time, they have no tent.
Almost everyone we spoke to has been displaced from homes or shelters multiple times. Many have no home to return to.
If, God forbid, an evacuation happens to my family, it would be the 10th time so far since the start of this war.
Nour Barda
We’ve been left with this choice: die in Gaza City or be displaced to the south. It makes you feel helpless rage and humiliation.
Montaser Bahja
Last October, when we wrote about Hammam Malaka and his wife, Najia Malaka, they had been separated for almost the entire war.
They had gotten stuck less than 20 miles apart after Israeli troops cut off northern Gaza from southern Gaza.
He was trapped in the south with Yamen, 6, and Sandy, 4. She was in the north with Seela, 3, Ashraf, the baby, and Mohammed, their newborn.
When we spoke to Mr. Malaka again recently, he said they had finally managed to reunite in January, during the brief cease-fire.
He told us how they found each other at what had been the border between north and south Gaza: “I switched on the flashlight of my old Nokia phone and began shouting into the dark — ‘Ashraf! Mohammed!’ — hoping she could hear me and find me more easily,” he said.
Then he saw her. “I ran and hugged her and our children with everything in me,” he said.
But their 3-year-old, Seela, was not there. She had been killed while they were apart.
After reuniting, the family returned home to Gaza City, but then were forced to flee south again.
Since Israel broke the cease-fire in March, their days have been spent in a perpetual struggle against hunger and danger, which Mr. Malaka said were like “endless waves crashing over us.”
Without work, he said, he has taken the risk of grabbing supplies from passing aid trucks or lining up at aid distribution points.
Hundreds of Palestinians have been killed searching for something to eat, according to aid officials.
Many people we spoke to told us about hunger: suffering from malnutrition, losing significant weight or going days at a time without food, even as they tried desperately to find it.
I lost 20 kilograms during the time of famine. There were times when I just collapsed and could not carry injured people and run for 100 meters to reach the ambulance.
Naseem Hassan
As a mother, all I think about is how to save one meal for tomorrow, how to bring water without quarrels in the long lines.
Yasmin al-Attar
Most of the people we knew are barely recognizable. They lost so much weight that we don’t recognize their faces anymore.
Ramez Souri